Sunday, September 20, 2009

cloud nine. Tugaloo race report








































Cloud nine is how I would describe this – a feeling of euphoria that began the second I got to the race site (well truthfully, the day I decided to commit to the triathlon training with TNT). The euphoria continied to build through the race, and proceeded to get even stronger when I took the last turn to see where I was positioned on the run course in view of the finish. A propeller seemed to appear on my back that moved me so fast I could not contain myself which caused for a sprint to the finish. I would imagine that is called adreneline, a feeling of tingles all over your body and a cold rush in your veins. The road turned, and with about a ½ a mile to go – the propeller began. I have not quite come down since, and have began planning my race goals for next season.

The race week began rough with broncitis, and a lot of inhalers. I was questioning whether the race could happen for me, when I could barely make it up my stairs at home, or ¼ mile of a run. Some triathlete! What is funny, too, is that getting sick, or taking any drugs is not something that happens often – hardly at all. So the fact that it was happening after all the training and hard work was frustrating to say the least. So the meds began working, phew – but as with medication or change to your system, you cure one thing and gain another; and for me that was hives. Hives + spandex = misery. So one of the medications that was making me better was causing hives, we just needed to find out which one. So great – now I need to start to stop the meds, and race day was 3 days away. Anyway, long story short – process of elimination happened, and it was all better. Anxiety aside. Now the only focus is the race – finally!

So we arrive on Friday to the race site, my husband and I, after dropping off our pooch to stay away for the weekend L. I ran into Dave and Chris prepaying for the car tag for race day. Then went down to the location of the race. How quickly a usual parking lot can transform into the scene of energy, excitement, nervousness – but in a way that your eyes widen, and smiles just gleam across faces. I remember thinking – “next time I will be standing here will be for the race”, and then took a look at the water and saw the boats placing the buoys. First I saw the orange ones…then the yellow triangles. Are you kidding me! There is no way that is only a mile. Well - I suppose that is the distance we have done many times over, except this time it is not in the form of multiple ovals.

Alright – off to pick up my official race number back at the entry point of the park, and then back to scope out my place to rack my bike. Number 208; my new lucky number. I got a corner spot in transition just aside the wind barrier wrap, so I did not have anyone on one side of me.

Arrived at the beautiful Chateau Elan, up the green winding wine vineyard paths and up to the Chateau. The room was spectacular, a bed that I needed to use a step ladder for. We arrived just in time to get our stuff situated, bike set up along the window –and down to the inspirational dinner.

The dinner was fantastic, full of butterflies for the next morning and inspiration and warm hearts after learning that we as a team raised over $200,000.

4:30 a.m. came pretty fast, especially because sleep did not come easy that night – as warned. My sleep was more of an anxious relaxation. I was sleeping, but also very aware of what was going on. My mind was very much available. I must have slept at some point, because I woke up after a strange dream that I had completed the race, but could not remember my run for the life of me. I was with the team, and continued to ask if I finished my race…I was terribly confused in how I finished without remembering my run. With that, I awoken, and was reading for my race day.

Nothing new on race day, so I had pre – prepared my daily bowl of oatmeal and brought it to the hotel, not knowing that there would not be any microwave in the room. It is amazing how there can be two completely different experiences in a food just from a temperature change. Let’s just say, I ate it – but it took my from 4:30-5:30 a.m. to complete it. Nothing new on race day, right J

Race site arrival, pitch dark, and a line of cars assumingly with the same amount of excitement in each one. We were parked between two trees overlooking the very lake that I will be swimming in in the next 2 hours. Stuff together, check - and off to transition to get my body marked. No lines, it was very easy. Transition set up was just as we had been educated by the coaches, and actually – I had a lot of people asking me questions on how to set up , rules, etc., so it was very clear that we were more than prepared by our coaches for anything that could happen. I reset my transition about 5 times, and every time I went to leave the area, I went back for just another look.

Down to the water we went, boy those buoys looked even farther away than they looked the day before. The day was foggy, a nice cool temperature. It did not look like we were going to have the concern I had heard so much about on the last turn of the buoy and the brightly beating sun. I went in to test the water, and it was lovely. Just the perfect temperature.

So off we go – lining up. I was so excited and peaceful at the same time. I was ready, and I could not wait a moment longer. I only waited about 10 minutes until I was off. Into the water. I started off very fast, swallowing water….i just wanted to get past the first two turns and on the straight shot to the next yellow buoy. I was definitely at least at the race pace I had practiced, but still as I continued, the lungs that have been healing began tightening causing me to have to breathe more often than usual, and cramps in my ribs began. But I was racing – so let’s race. Cramps aside. I was desperately trying to find someone to draft off of, but continued to be unsuccessful. Turned the last yellow buoy and proceeded to go about 50 meters off course – after redlining to catch back up, I finally found someone to draft just as we finished. Oh my gosh – I am out of the water and running to the transition. Lungs burning! I am 1/3 to the finish!

Heart beating in my throat, and transitioning. Glasses, check; helmet, check; heartrate monitor, check; gels, check; salt sticks, check; INHALER, check. And can this sand get any more sticky on my feet?

On the bike – and ready for the next 26.2 miles of climbing. I also had my goal in mind for the time I wanted to take to do it – 1:30. The race director said to me the day before, they describe this race as “the one with few flats” and smiled. Nice. The first 6 miles for me were the most challenging. My heartrate had not recooperated from the red-lined swim finish, and the run to transition; it was beating at 189. My legs had a tough time spinning with my heartrate so high, and this is when the mental begins to take a strong roll. Fortunately I had trained on many hills, and many times I wanted to just get off the bike but this was different. This was harder. But I had gotten through it before, and will again. I had done this ride a few weeks back, and I knew if I could just get through the first 6 miles, I would be fine; and I was. A woman passed me slowly on the last climb, and looked at me and began saying “ I think I can, I think I can…” and I say “Choo Choo”. As silly as that seems, it served as a great reminder that we are all working hard on these climbs, and if they can do it, so can I.

The rolling hills were spectacular, and I was loving life, most of the time. At about mile fifteen, I had a brief moment of anger, my test saddle was killing my sit bones, and I was just feeling the need to scream. I could not believe I was doing this, or why anyone would. It hurt, burned, and I was tired. I truly said, “ I am never doing this again”. Clearly this only lasted seconds, because the happiness and empowerment began to ensue that i WAS doing this. Adreneline kicked in, and it was strong to the finish for the run, that seemed to come very quickly after that. I continue to watch my watch, and realized what mile I was on. I can really complete this in 1:30 or so. I was exhilarated. No only had I finished my bike in 1:32, I had the highest average speed I have had in all my climbs before. Mental continues to ensue.

Onto T2, and so exited. I cannot believe I am 2/3 of my way through this race. I am really doing this! In all the brick training we did, I never had an easier brick than this. And actually, it never really felt like a brick. I kept telling myself to just think of this as the run you always do. Forget you did anything before. That is what I did, and that is what I felt. Power of mind. What was different, though, was the mild cramp that began at the top of me knee (bottom of my quad). I felt some shaking and movement like a gremlin beneath my skin, and that was my clue to ensure I sip on water at every water stop, and gel sips every fifteen minutes or so. It was successful, and worked through itself in 2 miles. Another new sensation was my feet going numb. Apparently, even though I had ran with my Yanks before, they did not make my feet numb; but this time it did. Strange to have numb feet while you are running. My right foot worked itself out, but the left stayed numb. My pace was a steady 8 minute mile for the first 3, and then I had the next 3 which slowed down a bit due to my numb feet. By mile 4 - I thought it was a homerun. I thought I had a good feel for where I was on the course, an then where I thought we were to turn left to go back, we continued straight, and there were runners coming back (up the hill I was running down) on the same road. Apparenty there was a turn around somewhere, but I could not see it, and it was playing slightly with my mental sanity. Finally I saw it, but knew I had an uphill climb to the finish ahead. Turned around, an on the uphill climb. I was feeling good again, but tired. I had a brief moment of weakness, and mental unclarity – but then I saw this woman that introduced herself to me on the beach. She was a TNT alumni, and she looked tired, and she was on the downhill. She had completely stopped running. I said, come on team - you can do this. She began running again, and said thank you so much, she needed that with a big smile. Just that gave me the power to conquer the rest of the climb strong. I was in my strides up the hill, then I heard someone say “go 208”, it was a stranger with a smile, but it definitely put more wind in my sails. Triathletes rock!

I got to the turn I thought we were supposed to take earlier, and one of the volunteers said, “it’s downhill to the finish”, and I remember thinking in don’t believe her, and that is a dirty joke. But I looked up, and suddenly realized where I was. Suddenly, it was like a propeller was attached to my back, and I tirelessly ran so fast I could not contain myself. Then all of the sudden I saw the turn in the road, and then the TNT tent, the transition area, …I was there! I can’t believe I did not do cart wheels. I felt like leaping into a split in the air. The finish was approaching, and there it was done. I heard my name, pronounced correctly! And a cold water was handed to me. That was the best! And my husband standing there saying he recorded the finish!

I did it, we all did it!

There is a lot to be said for training with a team, and not just any team, but one with a common goal, enthusiasm, a positive attitude, and motivation (and even better hearts). There is nothing better than working towards a goal, but with others it is even better. From day one, clearly training was tough – but as I looked around as the coaches would describe the workout of the day, I saw no wincing, no angst – just the attitude of “let’s do this”.

I have to say a huge thank you to my team, and to my coaches; the glue that empowered us to stay steadfast, and powered us with the confidence that this can be done, and filled us with the education we needed to do it strong, and well. I cannot begin to show my gratitude enough. You all rock!

Down in the history books as one of THE BEST days of my life.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

4 miler taper

well, today was the true test of the inhalers for my bronchitis. yes - it was only 4 milers; a distance that when healthy could be done effortlessly...but now provides me the feeling of someone sitting on my lungs stealing my oxygen. the inhalers helped, for sure since a couple of days ago i could not make 1/4 mile.

so as for today, completed the 4 miles just at 36 minutes; and had a few stops along the way to bring down my heart rate that is beating about 10 points higher than usual due to the bronchitis.

SO - that means i am still running under a 9 minute mile if i take no breaks so on race day, when i am healthy again, i should be in good shape.

ok - no more talking, time to relax the lungs...

on the up and up!

on the recovery

so the thorn in my side (ongoing chest problem); just would not go away, and continued to create chest tightness with each training day, if i was even able to train. after having an extremely unsuccessful run (if you can call it that); since i was only able to make it 1/4 mile, barely, i decided it was time for the doctor. now, the week before, 8 miles came very easily with no fatigue, so what i experienced that last morning run caused alot of fear in my mind. race day is too close for this - and whatever it is , it is not going away. and the weird thing is that i did not feel that bad aside from when i was training, and having an ongoing cough.

so went to the doctors, apparently i had a flu, or infection; and my body fought that off, but i am still left with inflammation causing bronchitis. this had been going on for 3 weeks, off and on; so fortunately the doctor understood and wanted to be aggressive. i have two inhalers, one for daily use, and one for right before exercise; and pills that consist of a steroid component to open my airways.

my meds began yesterday morning, and i did my taper workout 20 miles ride, 2 mile run. and i could do it. still not myself - but it was done. i still experienced a complete chest contraction and tightness during the first mile of my run, but it worked itself out.

the true test - today on the 4 mile taper run.

it just felt really good to be able to train again, even if it is just a taper work out; and knowing i am not doing any harm to my body.

less that a week to go!!

GO TEAM - I am BACK!!!!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

riding the tugaloo course

ok. so there has been so much anticipation for this course. everyone you talk to has been saying how tough this course it. it is full of hills (which it is) but after all the anticipation and stories, i was expecting mount everest.

a few of my team mates racing tugaloo met out there this morning to ride the course. and despite what we were anticipating - i was not as bad as what we had envisioned. now - i have that thorn in my side, as you read in the below blog post, so even though i realized the course was not as intense as i thought, i was able to complete it in 1:53 hours, so when healthy, perhaps i can knock 15-20 mintues off that. the biggest challenge of the course is the first 6 miles out of transition 1 - you go straight up hill, and while there are a few valleys, the peaks are very close together so not a lot of time to get the heart rate regulated, so the heart rate soars, and the legs fatigue. there is a slight break after the 6 miles mark, the next large peak is at about mile 10. the glory too, is that while we come out and circle back on the course - you end up hitting the first 6 miles again as your last 6 but backwards. so you end the course on a climb.

on a healthy day, this would have been very enjoyable, but today - the first 2 miles made me literally want to turn around. i drove 1 3/4 hours to turn around...and then i was anxious about getting sicker - but i was already there and committed...was i really going to quit? my heart rate was beating about 10 - 15 beats higher than usual, and i felt like i was breathing through a straw, and with that - of course my legs had no juice to spin. this chest sickness is really brutal for a ride. my cadence was lucky if it could push a 75. my speed on the flats was a difficult 14-15 mph...pretty sad. and even with that speed, i just wanted to stop pedaling. my team members were ahead of me, and kept getting further and further away. we agreed to leave no one behind, so at every turn they were waiting for me. so sweet - they knew i was sick. i hate to be that person that makes people wait, but they were really nice. they knew i did not have my riding legs on, but boy it is tough when everyone is riding faster, stronger, and better than you.

i kept going, and so did the hills. i cannot say that four letter words did not keep entering my mind on their approach, and then i got through it...and sometimes pain and anxiety was present (well that was always there - really)

anyway, before i knew it i was at mile 20, which meant i had 6.2 to go. and conveniently, i missed a turn and ended up doing another 8.2 instead, and a few more hills...but i made it.

so as a result - i did my race course, the race that will be happening in 13 days. so if i can do it on a day that i felt like i was breathing through a straw, i can definitely do it healthy. i just need to get healthy first. i will and i will rock this race come race day.....power of suggestion, right!

thorn in my side

the thorn is this chest cold that will not go away. it began 3 weeks ago,off and on - bad day, good day, good day, bad day...... i would still train and feel a little bit weaker, but could go on. i traveled to Houston on business, and our schedules were pretty tight, and i was only able to train one day, and ran a 6 miler. by the end of the trip i felt great; completely rejuvenated. i returned home on a friday, and went to my brick training on saturday and continued to train hard until my day off on wednesday. by tuesday, i ran an 8 miler and felt GREAT....until the day went on and i began the downhill spiral to feeling sick again. despite feeling exhausted, and feverish - i taught my fitness class that night - and well, did not get any sleep the entire night because of chest tightness and fatigue, and just not feeling well.

i took the wednesday following off, per the schedule, and while not feeling myself, i began to feel better....until my thursday swim. are we seeing a pattern here! downhill again. are you kidding me - i have a race in 2 weeks. this cannot be. of all things...i do not get sick - Ever!

so i reached out to my coach, and he pretty much said do not train friday and saturday ,and take sunday by ear ( well sunday i was riding my race course at tugaloo - so i was not missing that). he said i was more than ready for this race, and not to worry. if anything, rest may actually help me do better on race day, while being sick for the race will make for a terrible time.

and actually that was experienced today - next blog...

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

inspired heros

i began my journey with team in training not really having a true connection to the blood cancers that i am training and working to raise money for, but knew it was a terrible disease that too many people are suffering from. in turn families and friends near and dear to that victim are suffering too - that is the reason to simply do something to stop it. that is the reason i chose to accomplish a personal goal combined with a goal to help others.

after training with my team, i have met more wonderful people that i could have ever imagined - some more private about their reasons for training than others; but eventually the stories come to surface. all too many of the people training have a far too close connection to this terrible disease - husbands, wives, parents, children, siblings. everyone training has a connection, a connection that drives them forward to train harder day after day to make a difference for those suffering and to prevent others from suffering in the future.

this disease not only effects those with the disease, but effects their loved ones, in a way that i never want to experience. you can see the drive in their eyes, and the hope & pain for their loved ones that are struggling all while staying strong to conquer the disease they unnecessarily received.

it is for these people, and team members, that my heart and eyes have opened, and have become unbelievably inspired with a heavy heart - i now have my true inspiration to get me through race day. it is for all my team members that have had to become too close to this disease, and for all their family members they are training for. your strength, your faces, your honored hero.

my heart if so full for these people that have found their drive in their sorrow to make a difference.

they are my inspiration, and will be in my head and heart on race day.

they are the true heros. thank you team for your inspiration.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

run, run, run - and run a little more

run - 8 miles this morning. and when i think back to before i began training, i had a 3 - 4 mile max on the pavement that i would run. and now i am doing 8, with plenty left for more.

hills, it is all about the hills. this really came to surface when i ran in Houston this past week. i ran on the flats, and was flying in what felt like a gazelle on the sidewalks - effortlessly. i realized i had not ran on the flats in ages, and that all my training had been only on the hills. that was the lightbulb. intervals and hills.

run like it is your last chance to do so, train like the champion you are, & focus like nothing else matters. be strong & persevere - it will come. one step at a time, one minute at a time. strong.